Monday, July 31, 2006

Have You Ever Been Paralysed By Indecision?

There are stages.

Stage 1: awareness of option.
Everyone has options of some kind or another. In my case, it's the end of my Honours year, signifying my entry into the world of academia, industry or neither. Will I stay in this specific area? This field? Will I research? Will I talk/write/administer science? Or will science see the back of me?

Stage 2: research of alternatives.
Before I had broadband, I really felt the lack. Now that I have it, I'm not sure it's made things any better. There are times I feel I am closing in on a decision. I have it within my grasp. All of a sudden, it rears up on me, whinnies and bolts away, often kicking me in the head in the process. Then there are the times I feel no closer to a decision than ever. It's times like these I can be paralysed by indecision.

Stage 3: decision.
This needn't be a lifelong commitment, although a PhD does entail at least 3 years of research. The comforting thing is that time has an inexorable way of passing. Thus, despite my current ignorama and ignominy, in but a few months the decision will have been made. I find stress about exams can sometimes be eluded in a similar fashion.

Stage 4: awareness of option.
About three months after the decision has been made, new options arise. The cycle resumes, with hilarious consequences.

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